159 Friends

159 friends on facebook and I feel absolutely alone.  Why do I let these sort of things happen?  Why can't I just be single. I just want it all to stop.

Today's Events

Today has been very eventful.  First off it was my friend Trent and his fiance Melissa's wedding. Which, by the way, was beautiful.  My gift to them was me helping out with their food.  Their families wanted to just relax and have fun and not have to worry about anything and I stepped up and agreed to help.  Can't lie, weddings depress me.  After my divorce I started avoiding my friends weddings, made up excuses, but with Trent's I couldn't not go.  He is like a little brother to me and I am glad that he has found someone to be with the rest of his life.  It saddens me when I go to weddings because I had that love and don't anymore.  Everything was turned upside down and here I am single.  I like being single for the most part, but want to live and love and not have to worry about tomorrow, or the day after.  I want to have someone who I can share every day with and not have to wonder what tomorrow will bring...I guess the hard part is finding someone life that.  In due time I suppose. Until then...adieu my friends.

Forever Waiting:
*M*

A Thousand Years

I found this song and have decided that when I get married again this is the song that is going to be our first dance :-D I fell in love with it immediately. You'll understand once you listen to it!

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00&feature=colike