Life's Creatures

Since time began, or at least my time began, I knew to strive for more.  Strive for greater and better.  I recently met a man who makes me feel complete and happy and perfect.  He shows me that life isn't merely a dream but something that I can take a hold of and make my own. We are perfect together :-D

M

159 Friends

159 friends on facebook and I feel absolutely alone.  Why do I let these sort of things happen?  Why can't I just be single. I just want it all to stop.

Today's Events

Today has been very eventful.  First off it was my friend Trent and his fiance Melissa's wedding. Which, by the way, was beautiful.  My gift to them was me helping out with their food.  Their families wanted to just relax and have fun and not have to worry about anything and I stepped up and agreed to help.  Can't lie, weddings depress me.  After my divorce I started avoiding my friends weddings, made up excuses, but with Trent's I couldn't not go.  He is like a little brother to me and I am glad that he has found someone to be with the rest of his life.  It saddens me when I go to weddings because I had that love and don't anymore.  Everything was turned upside down and here I am single.  I like being single for the most part, but want to live and love and not have to worry about tomorrow, or the day after.  I want to have someone who I can share every day with and not have to wonder what tomorrow will bring...I guess the hard part is finding someone life that.  In due time I suppose. Until then...adieu my friends.

Forever Waiting:
*M*

A Thousand Years

I found this song and have decided that when I get married again this is the song that is going to be our first dance :-D I fell in love with it immediately. You'll understand once you listen to it!

Heartbeats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed that I would find you

Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00&feature=colike

Halloween

What an awesome day....ish.  It's been one of those days where I haven't felt well, so in turn I've been off. My mind has been everywhere and anywhere :D Life seems like it's going to look up today :D  I'm watching Syfy's Ghost Hunters Live Halloween show :D Awesome eh?

Watch "Joan Blondell: "Remember My Forgotten Man" with Etta Moten" on YouTube

A new outlook on life. ☂

I've come to realize my faults.  I know that I'm shy and reserved in person, but let me unleash online my true feelings come out.  Life seemed so dull and boring until I did that photo shoot of my friend.  He is very photogenic so that helped, but at the same time, just being able to be out with a camera, telling someone what to do, where to pose, made me feel powerful.  Until recently I thought that all I would ever be is someone who was pushed to the side. I definitely felt that way.  Everyone that I knew sort of pushed me to the back burner, at least until recently.  This new found love that I've found from people makes me want to jump for joy. Thus far, life seemed dreary and now, now i feel new, alive, thriving.  I think Im going to go with my original plan, finish what I can at Ivy Tech then transfer to IPFW.  That way I'm not moving away.  This is where my family is. This is where my friends are.  Why leave and force myself to find new ties when I have bonds here that with a little work can be strengthened?  All day I've had the word epiphany stuck in my head.  Not sure why.  Then it came to me....almost like an epiphany...I am an epiphany of passion.  I know what I want, it's just a matter of finding it now.  Love and Life can only hold me back so long.  It's my turn to start pushing back.

This is where my mind steps out of it's box and finds its way into this new realm of reality.  I know what I need, I know how to get it, not it's time for me to go out and get it.  :D

*M*