tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41798693808838953882024-03-07T21:36:33.421-08:00Inside My Mind's ImaginationMy life from the inside and out. Safe in your arms I'll fly on the wings of freedom, and I'll float on the winds of wisdom.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-89084930084095790932012-04-28T21:59:00.000-07:002012-04-28T21:59:05.155-07:00Life's CreaturesSince time began, or at least my time began, I knew to strive for more. Strive for greater and better. I recently met a man who makes me feel complete and happy and perfect. He shows me that life isn't merely a dream but something that I can take a hold of and make my own. We are perfect together :-D<div>
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Forever Waiting:<br />
*M*Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-46282738940580141972011-11-01T19:25:00.000-07:002011-11-01T19:25:25.886-07:00A Thousand YearsI found this song and have decided that when I get married again this is the song that is going to be our first dance :-D I fell in love with it immediately. You'll understand once you listen to it!<br />
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<div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">Heartbeats fast<br />
Colors and promises<br />
How to be brave<br />
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall<br />
But watching you stand alone<br />
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow<br />
One step closer</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">I have died everyday waiting for you<br />
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you<br />
For a thousand years<br />
I’ll love you for a thousand more</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">Time stands still<br />
Beauty in all she is<br />
I will be brave<br />
I will not let anything take away<br />
What’s standing in front of me<br />
Every breath<br />
Every hour has come to this<br />
One step closer</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">I have died everyday waiting for you<br />
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you<br />
For a thousand years<br />
I’ll love you for a thousand more</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: 14px;">And all along I believed that I would find you</span></div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">Time has brought your heart to me<br />
I have loved you for a thousand years<br />
I’ll love you for a thousand more</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">One step closer<br />
One step closer</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">I have died everyday waiting for you<br />
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you<br />
For a thousand years<br />
I’ll love you for a thousand more</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;">And all along I believed I would find you<br />
Time has brought your heart to me<br />
I have loved you for a thousand years<br />
I’ll love you for a thousand more</div><div style="background-color: #eff6f9; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; color: #222222; font-family: Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 23px; outline-color: initial; outline-style: initial; outline-width: 0px; padding-bottom: 23px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; text-align: left; vertical-align: baseline;"><br />
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This is where my mind steps out of it's box and finds its way into this new realm of reality. I know what I need, I know how to get it, not it's time for me to go out and get it. :D<br />
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*M*Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-24588652915856282182011-10-24T20:34:00.000-07:002011-10-24T20:34:19.029-07:00Falling...or is it failing?well this sucks...just when i thought i found someone who may actually like me for me ... he tells me no. turns me down. maybe me moving away is a good idea...far far away...this town sucks the life out of me more and more each day and i cant be happy here anymore...Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-80745583561467538952011-10-20T10:12:00.000-07:002011-10-20T10:12:03.907-07:00Ashes to Ashes..I've come to the conclusion that some things need to end. I've been doing well with breaking myself of the pop...now the rest of my bad habits...which really are not that many. I also am about to get back on track. Life will be awesome from here on out!<br />
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*M*Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-78580002655537972652011-10-18T05:08:00.000-07:002011-10-18T05:08:48.026-07:00Love?<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">My body screams at me.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">My heart races.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">I look towards the sky and see the clouds part and the rain fall. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">I begin to dance, play and jump. The rain calms my weary soul. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">Gives me life and peace.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">Then the clouds dissipate, yet the rain still falls. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">The sun flicker and flashes, creating a rainbow.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">The rain and the rainbow dance together well. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">The beauty is over welming and I begin to weep. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">The tears flow violently as I dance with the rain and rainbow in time.</span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">I can only wish for such a beauty and to be able to experience it is even more amazing. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">I lay in the grass letting the rain wash away the tears and let the rainbow warm my heart. </span><br />
<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: arial; font-size: x-small;">My frozen soul thaws and I love again.</span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-29800259679554556392011-10-06T09:08:00.000-07:002011-10-06T09:17:40.656-07:00My LifeI was going through files on my computer finding things that I didn't need anymore and getting rid of them. In the process I found a file entitled Poetry. I didn't remember putting this one on my computer and when I started reading through it I realized that this was poetry that I had written when I was in High School and such. I've decided to post them on here for you enjoyment =-] <br />
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<b><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">You and I</span></b></div>
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Megan Millhouse</div>
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You and I are different in
our own ways</div>
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Sometimes our uniqueness
really pays</div>
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Someday after school ends</div>
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We’ll all go our own way
at the road’s bend</div>
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We all won’t be
everyone’s first pick,</div>
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But we’re all united
because we’re the class of 2006.</div>
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Live your life, dream your
dreams, and listen to your heart,</div>
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We’re all like a fine
piece of art.</div>
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We will reunited once
again</div>
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Some of us will live the
life of fame.</div>
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While others just relax
and just live the gypsy life</div>
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Some will be the house
wife.</div>
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In the end always just
remember:</div>
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Party hardy, friends
forever</div>
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Dance all night, we’ll
be together</div>
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Girls like guys, and dudes
like chicks</div>
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We are the class of 2006!</div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b><u>A Thousand</u></b></span></div>
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Megan Millhouse</div>
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If I could die a thousand
deaths,</div>
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I would sleep eternally.</div>
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If I could cry a thousand
tears,</div>
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I would be dry and tired.</div>
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If I could scream a
thousand screams,</div>
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I would have no voice at
all.</div>
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If I could cut a thousand
cuts,</div>
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I would lie and bleed.</div>
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If I could lie a thousand
lies,</div>
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I would live a life of
hypocrisy</div>
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If I could live a thousand
lives,</div>
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I would always pick mine.</div>
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If I could fly a thousand
flights,</div>
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I would become a bird.</div>
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If I could,</div>
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If I would,</div>
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Would I really in the end?</div>
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Thousands and thousands</div>
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I’ll live and die</div>
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If I could…</div>
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A thousand…</div>
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Would I really?</div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b><u>The Domino Effect</u></b></span></div>
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She kept her hand steady
as she set each in its place on the black top of a playground. She
knew with each small move she could either place the domino safely or
ruin the masterpiece she was creating. “Steady” she repeated in
her head as the domino pieces made curves, and lives and waves in
every direction. “17 more dominoes and I’m finally finished”
She thought. With every domino she made a face. When she was
finished she backed up a little and looked in dismay. Something was
missing, something just wasn’t right. With a piece of white chalk
she began to write. She wrote and erased and wrote and erased.
Finally she knew exactly what it needed. She wrote with great care.
She formed each letter with so much detail. In the end the sun was
kissing the sky with watercolors right before the milkyway rose. She
smiled and stood and turned to walk away, turned back and gracefully,
with her index finger, pushed one domino over. She skipped off to her
house. Once inside she stood in a window on the second floor
smiling. She read aloud “Jesus loves you”. It’s what she
decided was missing. Now you ask what the dominos showed. Well, just
look below…</div>
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<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Will This Never End?</span></u></b></div>
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<br /></div>
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Swallowed by fears</div>
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Drowned by tears</div>
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Will this never end?</div>
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<br /></div>
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Cuts so deep</div>
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The pain will keep</div>
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Will this never end?</div>
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The colors turn dull</div>
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I am hit by the bull</div>
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Will this never end?</div>
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I scream but no one can
hear</div>
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I am standing on the edge
of the pier</div>
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Will this never end?</div>
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<br /></div>
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I wish to live a better
life,</div>
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But I have had too many
encounters with a knife</div>
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Will this never end?</div>
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<br /></div>
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Somewhere at the roads
bend,</div>
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I pray it all will mend.</div>
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Will this never end?<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;"><b><u>Nothing</u></b></span></div>
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<br /></div>
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I’m really not here you
just think I am.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I really don’t exist.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m just a figment of
your imagination.</div>
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Someone or something you
could have never imagined ever existed.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the problems in your
life that you can never get rid of.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the worries that
keep you up late wondering about.
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No matter what you try to
do you’ll never get rid of me.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No matter what you do,
I’ll never leave.
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Never.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the sorrow in your
heart.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the things that make
you cry.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the things that make
you scream.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the fears you hide
from.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m the things that make
you shudder.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
As I said before, I’m
really not here; I do not exist.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
You just think I do.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
This is where I end my
thoughts.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Maybe you’ll figure out
I’m not ally here.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m nothing at all.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Darkness filled the air
around me</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I have nowhere to go</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Pressure from friends to
drink and do drugs</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I feel my head’s going
to blow.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No matter the pressure</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I will not drink or do
drugs</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But my life is so hard</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And I have no one to turn
to.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m exhausted from
running from my problems</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I have nowhere to go.</div>
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My temples throb from weary eyes which need to cry, but I must stand
strong; everyone is watching.</div>
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<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
When the tears gently fall
to the ground, on the soil where many have died, you remember the
grief in others lives.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
When you look towards the
sky, praying for forgiveness, you remember the fears in your friend’s
lives.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
When you sing praises
until Jesus Christ you remember the tears you and many people cried.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
How many people who died
on that day were right with the Lord?
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
How many weren’t?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Many buildings were ruined
that day and vanished from the earth forever.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And people rejoice because
people try to ruin our life?!</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
How can people do things
of such disrespect?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Why do they do this?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Why don’t they care?
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Who does?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
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<br /></div>
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<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">She
</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She closes her eyes to her
imperfections.
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But even if blind she sees
them.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She’s all alone and no
one sees her tears.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She cries her lonesome
tears</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She worries her lonesome
fears</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She wonders what it would
be life if she wasn’t perfect in their eyes.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She looks at herself in
the mirror</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Yet only sees pain and
flaws</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She doesn’t are anymore</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The pain is taking over</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She cries her lonesome
tears</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She worries her lonesome
fears</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She wonders what it would
be life if she wasn’t even here.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She screams loud and long</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She knows no one hears her</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She thinks there’s no
way</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
So she ends her pain</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She use to cry because she
wasn’t perfect</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She use to scream from the
pain</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She knew the damage the
razors would cause</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But she doesn’t care</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
…anymore…</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
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<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Normal</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We all cry the same tears</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Talk the same talk</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
So what’s so different
about us?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
You are popular</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
You are goth</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
You are a loner</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
You’re everything I’m
not</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Is that why we are so
different?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We are all humans on this
planet</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
See we are all the same in
the end.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Just others are a little
more unique and free we all smile</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We all laugh</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We all cry</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We all die</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
So why do we act so
different?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Why can’t we get along?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Why can’t you see past
the differences?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And actually see</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
We’re all</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
NORMAL</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
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<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">The Edge</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I am standing on the edge
counting my thoughts,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Tears dry upon my damp
face.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The salty sea crashing
upon the rocks about me makes my knees weak,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And pricks my skin like
thousands of needles.
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I step closer to the edge
to look upon my death.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The jagged rocks look
appealing.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I spread my arms out wide
and forget the pain around me.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I fall into the rocks of
pity and despair.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I leave the pain behind
only to begin another life of more pain.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And more chaos.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
For eternity forevermore.</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
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<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">A Lonesome, Yet Perfect, Tear</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Bright eyes and sparkling
smile</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No tears in sight</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She looks so perfect</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No flaw can be seen</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But wait, what is this?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
A lonesome, yet perfect,
tear.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She smiles to hide it</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
With excuse “I have
something in my eye.”</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I see the pain within her
eyes</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And the sparkling smile is
dull</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Instead of the perfect
person she used to be</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She’s really not that
perfect at all.
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Every night her tears flow
siwfitly</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She wonders why she’s
loved.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She knows what they think</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But doesn’t care anymore</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She cries another
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Lonesome, yet perfect,
tear</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Then another and another</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The cameras watch it all</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She lives a life of
despair and lies</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She hides her face and
runs away</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She doesn’t even know
why</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
So many tears fall that
night</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And finally everyone
realizes
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She’s not perfect</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Another lonesome, yet
perfect tear falls with pain</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She doesn’t care and
gives it all up right here</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
She sheds one last
lonesome tear</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
This time isn’t
perfect.
</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in; page-break-before: always;">
<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Dreamland</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Starry skies; just like in
a mother’s lullaby,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The child’s eyes weigh
heavy-falling into dreams,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Impossible things are
possible,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Beauty can be found in my
mind,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Visions and prayers played
in time,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
No one sees until they
sleep,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Their dreams hold their
fates,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I can cry away my fears,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland can I
dare to dream</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only,
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Only in my dreamland.</div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in; page-break-before: always;">
<b><u><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I Don’t Know</span></u></b></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Jesus loves me, yea I know</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
That Bible there tells me
so</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’ve heard his love and
read it too,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But I really don’t know
what to do.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I sing?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I cry?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I shout, or sit or
die?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
God is there, I know that
too</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I feel His presence upon
me.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’ve heard His love and
read it too,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But I really don’t know
what to do.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I praise?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I love?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I care, or frown or
smile?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
The Holy Spirit comes upon
me
</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I had it once before.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’ve heard his love and
read it too,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But I really don’t know
what to do.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I pray?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I forgive?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Should I wonder, or feel
or give?</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I have friends I know that
too.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
They’ve always been here
for me.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’ve heard their love
and read it too,</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But I really don’t know
what to do.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I know they’re there.</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
But I can’t feel anymore</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
I’m confused and alone</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
And forgotten and abused</div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
Now what should I do?<br />
<br /></div>
<div style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in; page-break-before: always;">
<span style="font-family: 'Palatino Linotype', serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"><i>My
heart it throbs from the pain of love, yet there isn’t anything I
can do. My love for him is far greater than any and pain can only
describe it. He’s seen me at my worst and he’s seen me at my best
He has even seen my tears and wished me the very best. But that was
all nine months ago before the fights began, before he stopped
trusting me, before he hid his hand. He still tells me that he loves
me so, but it doesn’t show. He think that I don’t even care I’ve
taken all the paths of this dark and lonely maze and the only way out
is through that gate I don’t want to pass, but the only way to
resolve this pain is to run far away. with or without love behind me
I must hide from this pain. He doesn’t act as though he knows that
my pain is deep within and with each argument I fall closer to the
ledge and soon I’ll fall over and cry and never come back again,
but he doesn’t see how depressed I’ve become, he thinks I’m as
happy as I could be. He thinks that all I think about is me but I
don’t all I think about his him. These are the words I’d never
say to him. I have to have romance in my heart again. Love isn’t
about what he’s giving me right now. He thinks that love is what he
gives but love is what he’s already given. When we use to make love
there was a passion to it there was a love to it and now he does it
to stop our arguments. That hurts. I feel like I’m worthless and I
feel like I’m death. Its always my fault that they leave me.
Because I’m worthless and stupid and have no life. But instead of
showing that I’m wrong I sit and cry all night. I cry until the
dawn and then I cry some more. My new diet is tears and nothing more.
I’ll cry and cry and nothing more. Food isn’t help it doesn’t
do anything for me, I’ll cry and lose weight and feel completely
lost instead of free. I’ll fall into depression and cry that last
tear and from a broken heart I’ll fall never to return again. Its
not like I’d be noticed if gone, no one would care and even if
everything went wrong. He said that I don’t care and he said that I
don’t know. But why cant I tell him what I really feel? Because I
know he’ll leave me plane on the nose right there. I feel like my
life is crushed and I’m only 18 years old. I’ve fallen down a
path so bitter and cold, that all that happens is I get old. And now
its time for me to end this long and bitter speech, and now he’ll
call me and say that I always blame him for what is wrong. Yet I
don’t, I say I do but inside I know that my pain is all my
fault…and now that I’m crying all alone I’ve been left here in
the dark…</i></span></span></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in; page-break-before: always;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div align="CENTER" style="margin-bottom: 0in;">
<br /></div>
<div style="line-height: 100%; margin-bottom: 0.02in; margin-top: 0.02in;">
<a href="http://her-sweet-seduction.xanga.com/463030341/give-me-away/"><span style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><u><b>Give
me away</b></u></span></span></span></a></div>
<div style="line-height: 100%; margin-bottom: 0.02in; margin-top: 0.02in;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me a razor and
some ice, and I'll carve my pain away</span></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 100%; margin-bottom: 0.02in; margin-top: 0.02in;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me a gun and
I'll let the wind blow me away.</span></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 100%; margin-bottom: 0.02in; margin-top: 0.02in;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me a toilet and
I'll throw it all away.</span></span></div>
<div style="line-height: 100%; margin-bottom: 0.02in; margin-top: 0.02in;">
<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me a car and
I'l drive it far away.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me water and
I'll breathe it in deep.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Give me pain, I'll
give you joy.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Leave me to rot like
the uneaten apple</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Leave me to die.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">Love has abandoned
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<a href="http://her-sweet-seduction.xanga.com/469780099/life/"><span style="color: blue;"><span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;"><u><b>life</b></u></span></span></span></a></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Maiandra GD', serif;"><span style="font-size: small;">life without love isnt
life at all its an empty void of space that only hell can prevail
over...it [life] is jsut a pit that we dig to keep from falling
deeper, even though we do. But soon the walls of our pit start to
cave in and we are trapped from the light and we are left to rot and
wallow in our pain and despair. The pain that is felt in side the
heart isnt love its torture, and the love that may be felt isnt love
its a heart but not a normal heart, it is a heart that has be pierced
with a sword of ice frozen for eternity. Only true love may break its
binds but until then sleep beacons the sweet heart's presence...and
yet again she is left alone to cry.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">You're My Angel <3</span></span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;"><u>This is where</u></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Courier New', Courier, monospace; font-size: large;">Here is where my mind wanders. Here is where my heart flies. I want to soar above it all and create a dream. Life is bold and life is short. Live it to the fullest. </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;"><b><u>Monsters</u></b></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Lost inside my own sanity I cry. These monsters fight to take surface.</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I suppress them, forcing them to hide within me soul. </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">Lost inside my own heart I cry.</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">These demons teach me to react different every day, and every night. </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: large;">I want to smile, love and laugh but all that happens is I fail and fall. Won't life give my heart a break?</span> </span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><b><u><i>Liquid Courage </i></u></b></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Swallow fast </i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Swallow deep</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Every drink with the beat.</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Sway here </i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Sway there</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Scream that you just don't care</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Drink up love</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Time dies soon</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Now you're one step closer to your own doom</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Hide yourself</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Keep you safe</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Tomorrow my be too late</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Fall asleep</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>Forget yourself</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><i>And live the cards your life has dealt.</i></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: x-large;"><b>Chaos</b></span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Life of turmoil</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Life of regrets</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I'm here to live for me now </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Im tired of the things you've said</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Life is mine now.</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Before I wrote of tears and pain </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">Now of strength and glory</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I will prevail above it all. </span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: large;">I no longer linger in sorrow!</span></span></div>
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="line-height: 16px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: x-large;"><b><u><i>Now I know that no one really reads this but you're more than welcome to comment on any of the poetry, I just feel like it's time for me to venture out of my bubble and create who I want to become now. Hope that ya'll have a terrific day!</i></u></b></span></span></div>
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<br />Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-89447028207073685012011-10-05T20:42:00.001-07:002011-10-05T20:43:37.024-07:00Buckle down<div><p>So I just looked at my grades. I have 2 As and 2 Bs. If I'm smart I'll buckle down and get an A in every class. I just need to buckle down. Tomorrow when I wake up I'm going to write down every assignment I have for every class and figure out a schedule for homework.:-) I will make it this semester. I have to.</p>
</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-72199298248813072242011-10-04T09:40:00.001-07:002011-10-04T09:41:02.737-07:00Uncertainty<div><p>Oh life be told that life be told that love is merely imaginary.<br>
Then thus we must live in secrecy<br>
And let our love flourish.<br>
You keep me warm and happy inside.<br>
Your smile lights my way<br>
There is nothing imaginary about our masquerade.<br>
We dance and sing our eyes give us away.<br>
We are living breathing loving in our own way<br>
Oh life be told that life be told that our love is amazing.</p>
</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-84361969466040648112011-10-02T20:29:00.001-07:002011-10-02T20:29:49.541-07:00Who knows?<div><p>This is where life will being...I need sleep...I can't concentrate...I think bad decisions are going to be made here soon...along with some good ones too!</p>
</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-11255672614596341802011-09-26T19:21:00.000-07:002011-09-26T19:22:00.221-07:00LifeIt's been almost a year since I created this blog and I've yet to write in it because I've yet to find anything worthy of blogging. Life right now is bland, and lifeless. Alone and a failure, I suppose, is what I've become this year. I found a song that explains what my year has been like. I just don't know where to go from here right now. I know the only way I can go is forward...but I don't know if I'm ready for ready. I want him back. I love him and I wish that I could make him realize that this is what I want. I want him and I to be together. I want us to always be together. I want to mother his children and so forth. I know that he is what I want, but he doesn't want me. I know this. He tells me it will just take time for him to come around to the idea, but in the way he acts and the way he looks, I know he has no hope. Yet, I let my self fall all over again. I just feel like me being in this town is hindering me anymore. He is all that I want here...nothing more. If he tells me no, I've got to leave. I can't stay here knowing that the only good things I ever wanted slipped through my finger tips. Life has been thrown a curve ball and I can't tell which way is up anymore. I guess the only way to figure it out is to let time play it's role in life....though time is a precious thing anymore. <br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: Verdana, Arial; font-size: 13px;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: black;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: white;"><b>"Ashes And Wine"</b><br /><br />Don't know what to do anymore<br />I've lost the only love worth fighting for<br />I'll drown in my tear storming sea,<br />That would show you, that would make you hurt like me<br /><br />All the same<br />I don't want mudslinging games<br />It's such a shame<br />To let you walk away<br /><br />Is there a chance?<br />A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?<br />A reason to fight?<br />Is there a chance you may change your mind?<br />Or are we ashes and wine?<br /><br />Don't know if our fate's already sealed<br />This day's spinning circus on a wheel<br />I'm ill with the thought of your kiss<br />Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips<br /><br />Shut it out<br />I've got no claim on you now<br />Not allowed to wear your freedom down<br /><br />Is there a chance?<br />A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?<br />A reason to fight?<br />Is there a chance you may change your mind?<br />Or are we ashes and wine?<br /><br />I'll tear myself away<br />That is what you need<br />There is nothing left to say<br />But<br /><br />Is there a chance?<br />A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?<br />A reason to fight?<br />Is there a chance you may change your mind?<br />Or are we ashes and wine?<br />The day's still ashes and wine<br />Or are we ashes? </span></span></span>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4179869380883895388.post-63820970088374073602011-01-31T13:57:00.000-08:002011-01-31T13:57:27.812-08:00In The Beginning...Everything has to start somewhere and this is where I begin. I've done blogging before but no one seemed to read it so it was more of a journal than a blog. I have a feeling this one will be the same, but I don't really mind. I am putting my life out there for anyone who cares to read about it. I am as of today 23 years old. I am dating a wonderful man named Travis and we have a bright future ahead of us. I am enrolled at Ivy Tech Community College and I am going to try and achieve my associates in Philosophy. After I achieve that I want to go back for my degree in History with a minor in Archeology and MesoAmerican cultures. I have high hopes for myself and I pray that this blog keeps me sane through out my journeys.<br />
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Life right now is amazing. I honestly couldn't, and wouldn't, ask for a better one. I have a family who loves me and would do anything for me and a boyfriend who is just amazing in every way. I pray that this year goes better than the last. In 2010 I got a divorce to a man that I had been married to for 3 years, but together for a total of 5. It is definitely an interesting journey because I never thought it would end. Yea we had our problems, but there was no way of fixing the ones that hurt us both to the point that we hated each other. He and I are now divorced and friends. There will be nothing more between him and I ever again, especially since I've found Travis. I am ecstatic to talk about him because I truly believe this man will be with me through much more than what my ex was. <br />
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School just started a few weeks ago, so I can't really say yay or nay on it's progress. Right now everything seems to be going awesome, but that can all change in a heart beat. Until I really crack down and see that the homework isn't that bad then I will be able to assess the class situations. This year will be different!<br />
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Another thing that I think is awesome about myself is that I want to lose weight. The past few years has been me being a broken record saying that I'm going to lose it but I haven't yet. I will use this as a bit of a progress checker saying randomly here or there how I'm doing. My 2011 goal for weight loss is to lose 80 lbs. That's a decent amount of weight for the year, but as long as I lose 8 lbs a month then I'll lose the 80 in 10 months. I think that it's a good way to start off. <br />
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Until I find more to write I bid you farewell! Homework is beaconing my name and telling me if I don't do it I'll be in trouble! <br />
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Forever is never enough-<br />
-M-Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04476252070836204617noreply@blogger.com0